An Experience of the Heart
In a most unusual setting, at the British Embassy in Riyadh, Saudi Arabia, I stumbled upon a
copy of Henri Nouwen’s book, The Way of
the Heart. In reading this short but profound eighty-page work, seeds of thought were sown to
sprout later. The mystery behind his words, “in unceasing prayer we descend with the mind into the heart” (p.
v), enticed me.
Learning to Meditate – A Heart Experience
I had to wait another three years before the mystery in Nouwen’s statement began to open up at
another unlikely place – the “Star of the Sea” Catholic parish located close to Moreton Bay in Queensland,
Australia. Here I was introduced to the practice of contemplative prayer, also referred to as Christian
Contemplative prayer teaches me about what Aboriginal peoples in Australia understand as
dadirri, meaning “deep inner
spring” – a phrase referring to the “heart”. There is a deep spring within me – I can call on it, and it
calls to me (if I am receptive). Ungunmerr elaborates on the spirit of dadirri as involving inner, deep
listening and quiet, still,
silent awareness, with no need for words. There are parallels here with contemplation or
In like manner, contemplative prayer involves stillness of my body and spirit. In that stillness
and silence, I open my heart to the indwelling presence of Christ. I enter into the presence of the Spirit
who dwells in my inner heart in love. The journey of contemplative prayer, then, is a journey to the heart of
God – such prayer entails both a path of faith and praying in faith.
In Touch with the Heart of Christian Mystery – the Indwelling Christ
Ungunmerr writes that the deep spring within a person is the very spirit of God. This parallels
Jesus’ words about “streams of living water” flowing from within a person, by which “he meant the Spirit” (Jn
Similarly, in contemplative prayer I seek to be open to the personal and powerful presence of
Christ in my heart. Through this heart experience, I may catch a glimpse of the meaning behind the words of
mystery: “Christ in [me], the hope of glory” (Col 1:27) and how “Christ may dwell in [our] hearts through
faith” (Eph 3:17).
I recognize that heart spirituality indeed touches the central depth of the Christ mystery. To
symbolise his understanding of the mystery of Christ-in-us, Francis de Sales chose the symbol of the pierced
heart. Lescrauwaet sees Christ’s wounded heart as representing the crucified, risen, and Spirit-giving
Saviour of the world. In sum, Christ’s heart was broken, he became a living heart again (now and for ever),
and he became himself a life-giving Spirit (1 Cor 15:45). Therefore, his heart is the source of life for my
Additionally, a significant
aspect of recognizing Christ and divine love within my heart through contemplative prayer is as
Christ Jesus is truly human and truly divine. As truly human, his heart is the point of unity
for all human hearts. As the heart for all hearts he acts to become the saviour and liberator of all hearts.
Christ is also truly divine. His heart carries the fire of charity springing up from the
Trinity.(Frank Fletcher, “Heart, Spirituality and the Lay Vocation”, Compass 38:1 (Autumn 2004):
Finally, as a result of contemplative prayer, I believe that my human heart is the place where
the Spirit of the crucified and risen Lord inspires my acts of faith, hope, and love. However, for me to be
aware of what the Spirit expresses in my heart, I need to continue the daily spiritual discipline of
meditation in which I open my heart in silence
and stillness to the indwelling presence of Christ and so be in tune with the heart of
A Life-Changing Impact in My Spiritual Journey
In describing the significance of dadirri for the spiritual journey, Ungunmerr writes that:
The contemplative way of dadirri spreads over our whole life. It renews us and brings us peace. It makes
us feel whole again. (Miriam-Rose Ungunmerr,
“Dadirri”, in Dadirri – The Spring
Within: The Spiritual Art of the Aboriginal People from Australia’s Daly River Region, ed. Eileen
Farrelly (Darwin: Terry Knight & Associates, 2003), vii-ix.)
Likewise, the heart experience of contemplative prayer is also a life-changing practice.
Christ’s Spirit that I am invited to
discover in my heart through meditation is the power source that enriches every part of my life. It is the
Spirit of life and the Spirit of love. In fact, through the Spirit of love that dwells in my heart, I am called to maturity as a human
being – to become human in the fullest sense. My coming to the fullness of being is the fullness of God himself, as the
apostle Paul expounds in Ephesians 3:14-19. In other words, God’s being is within me. God is presence, and is
present deep within my being, in my heart.
Furthermore, the significance of contemplative prayer experience is as follows. To begin
with, Jesus has sent his Spirit to
dwell in my heart. His Spirit is open in love to God the Father. Consequently, when I am open in love to the
Spirit of Jesus, I am transported into the love of the Father too, with him and through him. Accordingly, my
human consciousness is summoned to an infinite expansion, an infinite development as I leave the narrowness
of my own ego behind, and enter into the mystery of God. Fallon concurs by stating that it is “a journey into
a ‘beyond’ that is limitless” (p. 32).
Concluding Thoughts . .
In this heart experience
of contemplative prayer, I have found myself
following Ranson’s “Cycle of Spirituality”, involving the four phases of attending, inquiring, interpreting,
and acting. A spiritual moment had first occurred in attending to Nouwen’s The Way of the
Heart. The contents captured my interest. I then wanted to discover and learn more – clearly I had
entered an inquiring mode. I
read and reread parts of the book, desiring to apply what I had learnt. It was later at the local parish,
when invited to participate in a Christian meditation group, that I was ready for interpreting my private experiences of
contemplative prayer. In the context of a group, I gained depth and meaning for what I had experienced, as
well as direction. Today, I am on the threshold of the final stage of acting. I have come to appreciate the
transforming power of contemplative prayer and am willing to support community programmes, such as those
introducing Christian meditation in school settings.
In closing, the value of Ranson’s “Cycle of Spirituality”, I
believe, is that it helps a person to discern what parts of their religious experience are of God and which
are not. In my experience of contemplative prayer, the inquiring and interpreting activities have led me to
discern that the Gifts of the Spirit (see Galatians 5:22-23), together with accumulated Christian wisdom over
the centuries regarding prayer, are indeed present.
Note: From the following list, I am particularly indebted to Peter Ng’s book, The Hunger and Depth for Meaning: Learning to
Meditate with John Main.
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by Madeleine Simon. Toronto: Novalis, 2001.
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